Chugging along...

The longer I go between posts, the less I remember what happened since the last.

Most recently, I'm getting over a painful bout of something going on in my stomach. For the last couple of days, I've had a cramping/knotting/butterflying/gaseous pain that has caused a level of discomfort that I haven't had in a long time. And I've never had this kind of feeling before. I went to Dr. Woodman's office to get his opinion before going to the hospital....it was that bad. He removed some fluid from my band and explained it would alleviate any swelling that might be occurring. He also said something might have gotten stuck, but I hadn't eaten anything in the last few days that was textured enough to get stuck. So, I figured I'd give it a little time before I went back to the hospital. I'll stay on liquids for the next couple of days to give my stomach a break, and see how it goes. There is a slight possibility I had some type of food poisoning from some eggs a friend gave me from his home raised chickens. I didn't have usual diarrhea or fever that goes along with it though. I don't really know what it is.

January was a long cold month...and a bit of a plateau month as well. I fluctuated from 262 to 265 for just about the whole month, even though I kept my caloric and fat budget on track. Sometimes that is just your body recalibrating its internal settings. I accept the plateaus now as part of my overall journey to change myself. They are just a sign that a change is happening. The fat me and the skinny me are at war.

During my last scheduled visit with Dr. Woodman, I explained to him that I felt I was barely in the green zone as far as hunger was concerned. I felt I could go another month without a fill. I focus now on controlling the amount of food that is in front of me rather than the amount it takes to make me fill full. Sometimes there is a lag from the time I stop eating till the time I feel full. And when I eat till I'm full, after a few minutes, I feel as if I've eaten to much.

I'm hoping to be at my goal weight by July. That would be a loss of about 8 lbs a month, very do-able. We'll see....

Today, I weigh 256.0